“It seems possible that, because sex and violence are encoded together, there could be a way into reorienting towards violence by rethinking sexuality, (and by extension gender relations.) I’m not trying to sanitize it, I’m trying to stay with it, as it is, for long enough that i can understand what’s happening. So that’s my excuse for being obsessed with it, but the truth is I’m obsessed with it, and that happens I think out somewhere beyond reasoning or choice. This is the content i have to work with, this is the movie in my head.”